I really want all of this to be a dream. Because I remember, back when I was little girl, how I badly wanted to leave everything behind and go to a new place and forget every bad memory I've had here. Little girl problems, y'know, everything embarrassed me so much.
But now look at me, almost 9 years later, wanting time to stop for a while so that I can enjoy these little moments that are going to mean a lot to me in the future. But I am afraid that's not possible because life as we know it, is passing by way too fast. I mean, I started this blog 2 years ago?! 2 years?! In grade 9th? Woah. What? How? How didn't I notice time flying by as quickly as it could.
And now that its time to say goodbye to the one place I have loved more than anything, I don't think I have the heart in me to do so. I don't want to do this. I don't want to say goodbye. I am sorry, but I think all of this 'a goodbye means a hello' or 'its a new beginning' is nothing but crap. Because I don't think any place is going to mean this much to me. Because I don't think I'll ever find a family like this ever again.
I am going to miss everything so much. I am going to miss the school uniform. I am going to miss the school badges. I am going to miss fighting over which house was the best and backing up green house until the very end, even though it was always in the last place. I am going to miss the crappy school song, no matter how annoying it was. I am going to miss all the dance steps we used to do on this song when we were little. I am going to miss going through these black gates every August and having feelings of extreme excitement. I am going to miss all the house meetings, no matter how horrible they were to endure. I am going to miss all the literary association meetings, even though all they were, were an excuse to talk to your friends and waste time in the worst way possible. I am going to miss the corridors from where we could see the entire school building. I am going to miss the snobby prefects and head girls, who would think they're a God's gift to this world. I am going to miss the election days when we would shout and scream and collect all of the badges like crazy and be the most happy we've been in a long time. I am going to miss bake and sale days. I am going to miss the happy birthdays and annoying every teacher in grade 9th. I am going to miss Hina and Sarah and I am going to miss all the stupid memories I have shared with them and all our stupid jokes and laughing like crazy and getting scolded on the craziest of things. I am going to miss grade 8th and making fun of everyone possible. I am going to miss tale of two cities days when we would pretend that we were the characters. I am going to miss whining about how hard it is. I am going to miss days when prefect duty was nothing but a way to chill and be alone for a while. I am going to miss the day we went to Ma'am Aliya's office to get scolded on something so trivial and stupid one would actually facepalm seven million times. I am going to miss the day I slapped Saba and she tried to hold back her tears and I was left feeling guilty. I am going to miss Saba and Maheen and every single freaking moment I have spent with them because they were the ones who made these 3 years bearable and much easier. I am going to miss our laughs, our spontaneous plans, our weird friendship, our parhakuness, our whines (I am going to miss that a lot). I am going to miss Maheen and her so called dramay. I am going to miss her so so so much. I am going to miss our chats in P.E while saba plays badminton and I am going to miss convincing them to bunk with me. I am going to miss grade 10th and 11th and tata and bata group. I am going to miss our annoying class that made me want to kill myself or strangle them. I am going to miss talking to miss Nadia like we're her best friends or something(annoyed her till the very end, oh yes we did) and I am going to miss going to the staff room like its my second home. EDIT: I am going to miss Mushk's super philosophical mind that always left you speechless. I am going to miss her arguements. I am going to miss her self obsessed self. I am going to miss the bongiyaan she, Farwa and Areesha would do..about me and Sidra. I am going to miss Farwa's billion nicknames for me. I am going to miss Areesha and her way of minding every single thing. I am going to miss her childishness. I am going to miss discussing Math with her. I am going to miss Sidra's 'Marwa, english copy check karke de dou.' I am going to miss Alina's never ending dramay and her hyperness.
I...just don't know what I'll do without the city school by my side.
So its time to say goodbye and all that crap, but I am not going to do that. I am not going to say goodbye with a smile and be excited for the new beginning. Because I know that no matter what happens, city school will always be there to welcome me. And I'll forever call myself a citizen. So no goodbyes for me.
(Also my new school will be pretty horrible and I am going to rant about its horribleness a lot on this blog so you better look forward to it)