Exams.

So. Mock examinations are officially over, and I can finally take a deep breath of relief. However, it's not always that easy. Mocks have ended, but CIEs are about to come soon, and that's what pretty much terrifies me the most. It's like..everyone expects so much from you. Everyone expects a good result from you and if it's not up to the mark, you feel like you've disappointed everybody. You've disappointed yourself, your family, your teachers, and your friends. So you continue to work hard, day and night, with the hopes to make them proud of you, proud of your result. And these days I'm terrified about what will happen in the future. What will happen once I get my result? What if it's too bad? What if I fail Physics next year? Questions. Questions. But I try not to think about it too much, and not come under the pressure. It's not easy. It's never easy.

Besides my exams, nothing new has happened. Same old boring life. Recently, I've been caught up with studies a bit too much, so I never get time to do anything else. I miss my freedom, so much. CIE's have ruined that for me. I'm also sad because I ditched my best friend today at 6 am because I was sleepy and I couldn't wake up and we had planned to talk and I just ditched her, like that. But she said she doesn't really mind. I really wanted to talk to her though, she cheers me up like no one else does. So I'm going to talk to her tomorrow, and I hope it goes according to the plan. That's the only thing I'm looking forward to tomorrow. I also have to start studying from tomorrow, and that sucks very very much. Sometimes I feel like crying and screaming and killing someone because of the workload, but I can't. And I hate that. So yeah, whatever.